Well as much as this misleading title is =) I’m actually in an amazing mood! My girlfriend and I are going strong, sure they may be a few bumps in this road. But it’s a road I’m willing to take with her. What ever storms come by, I know if I hold her hand we won’t be lost.
Being in love seriously is a lot harder than those picture perfect endings on asian dramas. It’s a lot more unpredictable and to our extent as humans we don’t always make the right choices in the end. We may end up breaking our hearts or someone else’s but as humans we have always got back up and just to tell life to just fuck off for a bit. The overwhelming feelings of regret and remorse are just around the corner, so as long as we don’t take a fall while crossing the highway of love… we won’t get ourselves killed. It’s harder than it seems, to be honest I’ve tripped up while running across and landed myself in a hole too deep to get out of… and what did I do… I only dug myself deeper when all I had to do was wait for someone or something to rescue me. Never lose words of optimism because while I dug myself deeper, I always thought to myself if I dug deep enough I would come out on the other side in China. Guess what I came out the other side, but not in China, I came out in the same place but as a changed man. That something I was waiting for was self realization, realization that I shouldn’t spend time depressed, I should have spent it picking myself up.